Thursday, September 01, 2005

Still so manic/depressive....

Well, God has shown to me that the string of manic/depressive events is not ending anytime soon.

The good manic:
So InterVarsity hosted an amazing Ice Cream Social on Wed night that just went fabulous. We ran out of 27.5 gallons of ice cream and got to meet a lot of new people. I was completely frazzled the whole time but God worked it out better than we could have ever planned. He had the room pre-set with tables and chairs so people could just sit and chill out which we never had apparently before, and when we needed more scoopers, there were 2 wooden spoons in the kitchen that Tim took charge of and made work. It was the most amazing experience in the world having so many willing and able people to help out.

The bad depressive:
So I volunteer one week of my life every year at a week-long, life-altering program called American Legion Jersey Boys State. I am in charge of around 60 high school junior boys and teach them how to create a democratic system of government from the most basic city level up to the state level. I work with some of the most talented, intelligent, brilliant, funny, amazing businessmen and politicians in the state. Together for one week we eat, live, sleep, and breathe democracy and politics into these impressionable minds. For 5 years, I have been a part of this program working, sweating, and bonding with these finest examples of citizens that NJ has to offer. Unexpectedly on Monday our director of 19 years died at his home. This man was director when I was a delegate and allowed me back on staff. He saw to it that my brother became a delegate and also came back on staff. He worked tirelessly throughout the year to secure the best speakers, finest seminars, and to turn Boys State into the pinnacle of American Legion programs. He was a great leader, successful lawyer, ideal citizen, and a personal friend who will be greatly missed.

So here I am, continually in between two extremes of feelings. InterVarsity is starting more solidly and so much better than I could ever have imagined or hoped for. I'm meeting so many people and strengthening so many friendships that I built last year. I have never in my entire life been happier to go to school and to go to a group like IV. And yet, at the exact same moment I just want to hide in a corner to cry and hit things for a while because I'm just so emotionally upset that I don't quite know what to do. I look and feel like I have it all together... extreme high + extreme low = medium, neutral, fine. I will say though, there are only one set of footprints in the sand.... and they aren't mine.


Someone special said...

Very nice refrence to my favorite peom "foot prints" If only we knew who wrote it.

I want you to know that you do have a sholder to lean on and a friend to talk to if ever you need it!

Logan said...

Thank you. I appreciate that very much.

We may not know who wrote it, but there is no question as to who insipred it.... and I believe that He is more important than any human author...

Someone special said...

I must agree with you there