Saturday, September 03, 2005

To put it simply... This sucks.

The words of my good friend and Foundation treasurer Matt. He turned to me after the service, eyes red, a trail of tear drying on his face, and said nothing other than, "this sucks." It seems so simple to say, but the way that he said it and how he looked when he said it, was just it. I spent from 9am - 3pm for the Director's funeral. Viewing, church service, burial service, luncheon. That was very too long being too sad and upset. This was just one of the hardest things I've ever done in my life so far. I've dealt with funerals, I've dealt with all my grandparents dying, my uncle dying slowly of cancer, friends from high school dying, but nothing prepared me for this. It's not even like we were best friends, I'd never been to his house, but his death just took so much out of me. I was mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted after this. I wanted to go hang out with my cousin but I just didn't have the faith that I could safely drive home with the sun down. I'm going to miss him... and things aren't going to be the same at Boys State. The biggest fear, which Dr. Kane also brought to our attention.... get ready for a year of dirty, nasty, politics. The highest office is vacant, and the buzzards are already circling......

On a manic note, Casting Crowns tomorrow. Yeah. Totally excited. I'm getting there early but meeting a bunch of IVers eventually. Then hedge trimming.... (shower, change, food) and then a birthday party for a famous friend of mine.....

2 comments:

Someone special said...

you mentioned a famous friend... who? So sorry to hear about the gentalman from boys state. It makes me sad to hear you sad.

Logan said...

That funeral was one of the hardest that I've done in recent years... but it's a good thing they don't happen all that often.

My famous friend was more of an inside joke from Boys State. It's my friend Jim, who looks like a 19 year old version of Ron Jeremy... if you know who he is...